When the tides turn.

This year has been the worst year of my life, I know people have worse problems but mine keep coming.  So my car is broke again, and since I am broke (because of fixing it four months and $1000 ago), it makes this really bad sound when I turn left, and of course no way home with out turning left.  I wish I would get in a accident and total it so I can get a new car.  I  like my car its just annoying.  My tuition was due like a month ago, and my student loan is being crazy, tons of doctor's bills, and my grandpa is about to die.  Life sucks today, when will my luck turn around? Isn't that the law of nature or something?

Stand Still, Look Pretty

I wonder sometimes if every one feels incomplete and fallen apart.  We are told to have dreams, have expectations and work as hard as you can. We are told to find someone to make us happy, so you are never alone.  Like being alone is bad, grant it I have boyfriend of 5 years, but I am proud of the person who is completely alone and pulling it off. Just imagine if you didn't have someone else your life would be completely different.  From were you live to what you eat. If you are alone you are expected to date, and find another person, and if you don't there is something wrong with you. Anyway,  I understand life is full of hardships, but I don't understand why. Why take more than you can need or want? Why let someone else suffer just so you can have that extra?  Why act like you care when you really don't?  These are questions I have to ask myself and do others ask themselves.  Do others feel empty and wonder what happiness means?  I am sure I know happiness, but I always ask how do others feel happy, and how do they feel sad.  How is a question I have always asked, but I always here you just think too much.  Do others feel like they don't belong, like an in poster, even if everyone says you belong there. How do you feel, live, love?